I'm actively working on myself in the motherhood department.
Ugh, I never wanted to be a poor, sick, single mother. But my choices caused this. I take accountability where it counts.
I love my baby. I do wish I was were much better for her. I wish I had stacked my bread, did more healing and created her with a great man. She deserves all the good things. I feel bad that I deprived her of some right at the very beginning. I will make it up to her best I can.
I want to yell less, get mad less, do more, be more, HEAL a lot more and get really real with myself when it comes to full on self evaluations. People tell me I'm doing a good job. I can appreciate that. There are times I feel like I'm being the parent I want to be. But I'm being very honest with my self these days. EYE GNO for myself that I could improve in many ways. I'm consciously parenting sweet little Lisa. I do feel it'd be easier if I had a partner by my side who's in agreement with this. But I won't give up, no matter how hard it seems. I tell my girl I love her everyday. She'll know it to be in true her heart though by my actions.
My baby saved me. I keep saying this because it's a truth that still amazes me. I thought 2020 was going to take us both out. We are here to stay. Hah so I might as well do the best I can to have the best of times right??? I hope to make Lisa proud. Both my Lisa's ☺️❤️🙏🏽✨
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